Thanks to you

I’ve been taking it slow

So I won’t miss a thing.

Take my hand and sweep me away
today i'm yours and everything will be okay.

♥♥♥

This weather has me wanting a love more tangible
something that i can hold, because it's getting cold.

When you're stuck loving someone, all you wanna do is stay away. But, when that person shows even the smallest gesture of affection, all your efforts of moving on go down the drain.

I'm a walking contradiction: I want to fall in love, but at
the same time, I don't want to experience the hurt and
 pain that is associated with it.

I wanna make myself not care..
but when it comes to you..
I just cant stop myself from caring.

When i felt like no-one was there to turn to,
you were the one who proved me wrong.

When he holds me close and i hear his heart beat
& kiss his lips, I realize that this is where i want
to be. And this is how i want to feel.

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12-2-09

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

I'm a drug.
You're an addict.
Come on now baby.
Make me your next worse habit.

The truth is, everyone's going to hurt you.
You just have to decide who is worth the pain.

You've got to understand that it took courage to make myself come to the realization that everything that I've ever wanted and is found within you. For me to put everything aside again, everything that you once broke, is a remarkable task that took a lot of strength and faith. They say sometimes people put walls up, not because they want to block people out, but because they want to see who cares enough to knock them down. You know me like no one else does because I never was able to let anyone in, and you don't even know how glad and thankful I am that I gave you the chance. You stayed at our best, yet you stuck at it at our worse, and proved to me what truth in love still has. The sky is the limit and true love is forever.

Here's to the moments where we
didn't think about right and wrong.
Where we just lived, crossed
our fingers, and hoped for the best.

Don't be so quick to judge me.
You only see what I choose to show.

With me you gotta learn
to expect the unexpected.
I make decisions in an instant.
Spontaneous wouldn't even describe it.
I make mistakes like you wouldn’t believe.
I’m smarter than most people think.
Only a few people see that side of me.
I know what I want -
& I know how to get it.
I don’t take no for an answer.
The boys want me.
The girls want to be me.
I smile when I want to cry-
& sweetheart I work the world like my runway.

Is anybody satisfied with who they really are?
You could be the moon,
& still be jealous of the stars.

So your sorry for treating me so bad..? Well i'm sorry for putting up with it.

I heard a song tonight on the radio.

Another girl sings about a boy…

She sees his face in every space,

every room,

& I know that if I turn around

you won’t be there.

If I close my eyes,

will you be there?

People have scars in all sorts of unexpected places.
Like secret road maps of their personal histories.
Diagrams of all their old wounds.
Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar,
but some of them don't.
Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone,
the pain still lingers.

Sometimes I still stare at you, amazed
and absolutely enchanted. and even though

I've held your gaze a thousand times, when

you turn to me and give me that silly grin

of yours, you still make me blush.